To you Baby 'Opia...

It is very hard to sometimes put into words my feelings about our adoption.

I think about Baby 'Opia EVERY day...

imagining what it is going to be like when we receive the phone call...

imagining a boy or a girl...

imagining our first touch...

the first time the kids get to hug each other...

I am constantly working on being patient;

hopeful the day I imagine so often will happen soon.

I pray everyday that God keeps our child(ren) safe while we are apart and waiting,

I pray for our child(ren's) family and their continue strength and health,

and I pray for the continued strength and patience during this waiting time...

But,

I have my moments...

moments of sadness, frustration, fear, loneliness, longing...

sometimes they 'hit' me when I am silent before I go to bed,

or when I am driving,

or when I look at my two children peacefully sleeping at night.

I remind myself that it WILL happen at the PERFECT moment,

I place my trust in God and then those 'bad' feelings seem to fade...

Today, I have carried them with me ALL day.

Simply put, I AM SAD today.

We are having to update most of our homestudy documents because it has been a year since their initial completion. So, that means, I have been talking more about the adoption...reminding me all over again how LONG we have been patient...

Baby 'Opia,

If I had 4 minutes with you today, this is EVERYTHING I would say to you...

This song is for you-

If you want to know what I would say... 

listen to the words of this song

All my LOVE,

Mommy