When I think of roulette I think of these words:
Odds
Chances
Risk
Numbers
Round and Round
Win
Lose
Never did I ever consider adoption and roulette similar...
but when I learned this weekend that people who decided to go with a different agency (both of our dossier's landed in Ethiopia in the same month) are on their way to Ethiopia to pick up their baby boy... all of the words I used to describe roulette came to my head, especially the word 'LOSE.' I felt like we lost (yet knowing very well, we are not losing.)
I know God has a plan and I rely on this Faith every day of my life...but the HUMAN in me makes me question, doubt, question, doubt...hence the descriptive roulette words that creep into my head.
When our number is 'called,' when our baby(ies) are ready, we will go. And in the end we will 'win'.... But until then, the wait will continue to be like the roulette wheel (the round and round and round and round.) HEAVY SIGH....
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My dear Natalie,
the baby(ies) that will come your way will be as blessed as your family will be. your grace and patience is going to be rewarded all my love to you and your family.
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